Why oh why I ask?

So, I often find myself thinking about things...deep things...well deep to me..duh! I think about being a good mother...finances...my own expectations of myself and others and if I am unrealistic. I often wonder why things work out for us the way they do, how things fall into place, or how you meet people at certain times in your life and why now. I think of people who I knew years ago, and there is no way I would ever be friends with them now, and vice versa..the friends I have now I wonder would I still have been there friend 5-10 years ago...chances are not. So many questions and so many without answers.
I also find myself asking the most dumbest, such as why I am or just did clean the basement that looked like a tsunami hit it at 1:00 in the morning, what am I thinking? Also, when my husband went to bed and said "sweetheart come with me," why I chose to finish this silly task and then...then get on the computer to post this? See I told you dumb right? The really sad thing is I'm looking at the storage/craft room to my right and thinking I wonder how long that would take me if I did it now? LOL Crazy! I'm also thinking that I never got around to mopping today or vacuuming and I should totally do that...even now.
I also think about the sweet things like tonight while watching Family Feud with Avery (we love this) she reached over and started tickling my arm without being asked cause she knows how much I love it, or that my almost 3 year old came downstairs when she was supposed to be in bed and climbed up on my lap and asked me to tickle her face...LOL...while doing so Eben tried to help making her a little peeved...
I also think about the good things. Growing up all I wanted to do is be a Mother, I had other ideas I would fall back on if I didn't become one..such as an opera singer...lol...a comedian, and a writer, fine career goals huh? Luckily for me I got my dream job, I'm a little under paid, and I tend to work alot of over time but really I don't mind at all. I actually feel that I should be paying someone because in no other position do I get to climb into bed at night and feel this way and look forward to my next day.
So goodnight all...I'm going to keep my thoughts in check tonight. I'm going to go check on my four bosses and see if there is anything they need, and then I'm going to get in bed and snuggle with my Supervisor ;) LOL