I NEED YOUR HELP!!!!

Its official, I'm a dork. I somehow deleted my entire friend list of bloggers and I don't remember all that was on here, HELP, if you read my blog, chances are I read yours so can you please add your blog to the comments here. Thank you so much and I promise not to do this again.

It's Beginning to Look a lot like Christmas

Merry Christmas to me. Santa I know you got my letter, I mailed it myself, I think you should start thinking about the things I asked for, what do you think? I have been good, like I mentioned in my letter, so please think about it.

Its freezing outside, I hate it but love it all at the same time. My tree is gorgeous, there are presents under the tree and more to wrap. We are going to make our traditonal Gingerbread house tonight for FHE and the kids are super excited. I will take lots of pictures. The smell of Christmas is in the air. I know that sounds silly, but really I can smell it, everything to me smells like candy canes, wreaths, chocolate, pine, and homemade everything.

Its been a hard month so far but with faith and hope I know that this year will be the start of a new beginning for everyone. I am looking forward to it, to knowing that things heal with time, and time is really what I have.
So heres to the remaining month of December, may it only get better, and January may you bring with you all that we are praying for...we know what it is.
So Merry Christmas to us very soon!!

E.R. Really?

My poor Carys, on Saturday she was playing in her room, listening to music when she fell and cut her hand on the antenna to the boom box. So needless to say after we stopped the bleeding, Aaron came home and took her to the E.R. where she got stitches in her hand. She was super brave and I am so proud of
her.
She has had a rough week with alot of issues and changes that have come up, and then this happened. Hopefully this week is much better...for everyone!

"Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos into order, confusion into clarity.....It turns problems into gifts, failures into successes, the unexpected into perfect timing, and mistakes into important events. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow. - Melodie Bettie

HOPE...

I realize that opening my blog up and myself makes me vulnerable to criticism, to wondering, to curiosity, and all the above. I also feel that the people that do read my blog will and are respectful, and they will understand, that yes I am being honest on here in as little details as possible, but that my privacy is just that....private.
I don't want to not write how I'm feeling because I feel like that's an injustice to myself, and to the readers who do know whats going on, plus we all know that life is hard, life is about making hard decisions, about heartache, and tears, and betrayal, and finding things that you probably didn't want to know about yourself and or others but knowing that in the end it was all for the best.

So, with that...I may choose to posts things here about my life as I have, or you may just get pictures of my children of our life, and what is going on in the Moses home.
I will tell you that today I feel hopeful, I feel like things are progressing, I feel strong, I feel like I am moving in the right direction, and I know that what I have decided and what I am feeling is what I have prayed for, what I know my Heavenly Father wants me to do, and I know that with my Father in Heaven and the power of prayer, repentance, the Atonement, forgiveness, and being humbled, we to can get through anything. Really, isn't that worth the struggle, to know...This to shall pass? Tomorrow is another day. I have hope in all that I am doing, and I know I am not alone.

My heart isn't responding...darn I really thought that pep talk would work, but it didn't. In case you didn't know, I try to take the funny side of a very dark and hard situation. I try to do this a lot for my sanity. It makes me feel better, sometimes.
I often wondered about my life, the struggles and issues that I have chosen to deal with, and up til' now I really believed...wow, that's a whole crap load. Now, looking at my current situation, I would repeat all of the past to avoid this present one. I think at times I'm strong, and then their are days I feel weak, vulnerable, helpless, and at times like a door mat. I really believed with everything I had, I had stopped that sick cycle, of people hurting me, or thinking that they could and somehow getting away with it.
I don't write this to offend or hurt anyone, I write this because it feels like my personal space, my journal, my history so to speak, and as hard and as difficult as this currently is, I want to believe that someday I will appreciate what Ive written and that in some way it will help the future me.
So I write this to Kristen, to anyone that feels this, to anyone that has been where I am, if you can help, great, if you cant, that's okay too. Just being a sounding board works great too.

I want my family...Aaron's family to know of my great love for them. You all have been so supportive and loving, to both of us, it makes me believe in a better tomorrow. To keep going at it, and remembering why we are all here, to go through this life even with its up and downs, to remember our Savior and the great love that he has for me, to reach out and teach others, to inspire others, to come out stronger than before, to repent, to have our sins washed away, and forgiveness, from others and to others. I hope someday forgiveness will come, in many forms. I pray for the strength to remember the Atonement to remember that everyone is human, to know that everyone makes mistakes, just as I do.

Dear Heart,

Its me, if you could just feel a little better and start healing that would be great. No one likes to feel like this especially me. I completely understand how you feel, and I get why you hurt and why you are broken, but if you could just buck up and move forward that would help out alot. While your at it, could you please have a conversation with the rest of my body, why does it need to keep hurting? It just aches constantly, and tell my eyes to stop the watering. Its ridiculous, really.
Okay, I guess that's it. Over and out.

Love,
Me

Christmas Decorating

Yesterday we started decorating for Christmas, we got most everything up until we had trouble with our darn tree and the lights working. So, I gave up. Today we finished it, decorated it this morning and finished with clean up. Now everything looks perfect. I love this time of year. I love Christmas music, I love how my house feels, and I love the twinkly lights.

Thanksgiving Day at the Crook's House

Fun times at the Crook House! On Thanksgiving day we headed to my parents. We went, along with my sister Carey and her family, with my brother Craig and his. It was a nice day. A wee bit noisy, but that tends to happen with lots of people and especially lots of active kids. We played some games and Dennis and Jocelyn had a "Who's tongue is bigger contest?" Needless to say my camel of a daughter who can pick her own nose, lick her elbow, and curl it under her chin won...Way to go Jocie, I'm so proud! Eben still isn't completely better from his ear infections, so he was extra cranky and very clingy. However it was a fun day spent with family. Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Wednesday: Thanksgiving at the Stoddard's House

So every year we have Thanksgiving at Jodi's (Aaron's parents house) because she usually has to leave town on the actual day. It works out great because then we can attend their house and my parents house never any choosing or rotating. We love to be with family. This year was extra special because Tyson, Stacey and the twins got to be here which was fun. The kids played together, they had fun and interacted, while the adults chatted and spent time together. It was very relaxed and nice. Jodi had her fabulous "Village" up around the top of the kitchen which is always a topic and beautiful display. It wraps all the way around and looks great (soon shes gonna run out of room). The girls got to help make homemade rolls with Grandma and got nice and "dirty". Good Times were had.

Hi Santa its me...

Dear Santa,

I have been a pretty good girl this year...I think. I only have a few small requests from you, and they wont hardly cost anything.
I would like to have healthy kids the rest of winter, a husband that returns safely home in time for Thanksgiving, friendly loving family to spend the Holidays with, a clean house from time to time, to make ends meet until June when Aaron is done with school, a new camera, hardly any talking back or sarcastic remarks from children, clean clothes that someone else washed and carried upstairs and put them all away in drawers every time, to see New Moon at least a half dozen more times, to kiss "Santa" under the mistletoe, healthy extended family, people who let you cut in the grocery line when they can see you only have one item, endless amounts of gum in my purse..oh and diapers for Eben, a drivers side window that works and they don't have to keep trying to fix it..after 3 times, a husband who listens to every single word I say and actually looks interested...(I know that's really just a dream but I thought Id ask), and of course a new vacuum.
I think that wraps it up. Thanks so much and I hope this finds you in good Holiday spirit. Please send my best to Mrs. Clause. Happy Holidays!!!

Kristen Moses

Im so THANKFUL

I have so much to be thankful for. So seeing as though Thanksgiving is coming up, what better time for me to take a moment and write a list of all the things I'm thankful for and post about them. So here we go. In no particular order of course.

1. Family
2. Friends
3. Home
4. Indoor Plumbing
5. Blankets/Bedtime
6. Christmas Trees (yep I just wrote that)
7. Good music, the kind you blare in your car and sing out loud
8. Health
9. My covenants Ive made
10. Humor
11. Great books to lose yourself in, and the movies we can watch and think...awww...fabulous
12. Babies right out of the bath
13. Peace
14. Sacrifices that Men and Women make everyday on behalf of my family to keep me FREE
15. Gospel
16. Chores
17. Jobs
18. Lots of space
19. Cleanliness
20. Home cooked meals
21. Vehicles
22. Eternal and Endless Love
23. Facebook
24. Laughter
25. People who laugh at my jokes
26. Christmas shopping
27. Christmas morning
28. Being with family on the Holidays
29. Crying
30. Humility

What a fruit cake!! LOL

Hmm, perhaps it has popsicle on the glass from summer? Could be.

He is so freakin' funny.

New Moon is HERE!!!!

NEW MOON IS HERE!!!!

On Thursday/Friday Morning Shanell and I headed to the premiere of New Moon. We got there at 9ish the line was SO LONG!!!! It was madness, and I was proud to be a part of it. There was huge lines, people camped out for HOURS, chairs, food, blankets, and the guy behind the counter with wolf ears! LOL

It was great fun. We sat in line and then our hubby's showed up a little after 11:00 to join us. The movie was NOT a let down. It was incredible. They just keep getting better and I cant wait until Eclipse comes out in June 2010. So excited!!!

Birthday Luncheon

For Carey's Birthday Luncheon we celebrated at Olive Garden. Even though Carey was the Birthday Girl, Jimmy was the guest of honor. He was super sweet and so cute. We had so much fun playing with him and talking to him.

It was so nice to be with family (Grma Nana (Mom) Carey, and Grma Moore). The only thing missing was Heather. We missed you so much, please know you are never far from our thoughts.