So I don't know about all of you but I "used" to love Sundays. It's the only day that I know for a fact that I don't have to take anyone anywhere, wear clothes all day, go to the store, take someone to school, and I knew for sure Aaron would be home. There was this peace that would come over me when I thought about it on Fridays and Saturdays. I always make sure that my house is super clean and that way I don't have to do ANYTHING. I seriously consider it "my day off." I know I actually said "those" words. Really though that's the way I feel or felt. We eat lunch, sometimes Aaron and I would take a nap while Eben napped and the girls watched a flick or played downstairs, or we would all watch something as a family and hang out. We usually get our jammies on and stay inside unless its a nice day and then sometimes we play together in the yard. I love it. We have a big dinner together and enjoy each other. I love it. (Did I mention I love it) LOL
Well, that is until Aaron started working "every" Sunday. I hate it.
I try to get all the kids ready and get there in time, and deal with them all at church during sacrament but I usually get there late...of course. I spend the next hour plus arguing and trying to convince Jocelyn to go to Nursery, which usually is a HUGE power struggle. She screams and cries, and usually she ends up in class with me...and Eben of course. I am lucky though I do have my sister who is in my Ward and she usually takes Eben so I can take Jocie down and deal with her, but then I feel bad that Carey has to take Eben...aah the guilt.
Then when we get home, I break up fights, and I never get a nap, I don't know why...LOL...it just isn't the same. The feeling is gone, perhaps its all in my head or perhaps I'm creating the craziness in our home, I don't have a clue. I just want those happy Sundays back. I want to be able to go to my classes and feel and get what and why I need to be there for. I haven't had that in so long. Just once. I want Jocelyn to go to class without any issues, right away so I can attend ALL my classes. I want Aaron there with me to help during all this craziness and I want to feel the spirit again not have to entertain my 3 year old during my class time. Ugh!
I hope and pray that Aaron gets a Sunday off soon, and that we can finally have a day like those I love. Perhaps soon!
5 comments:
Oh Kristen, I'm so sorry Aaron has to work and you have to handle all this. When our kids were small, Tim traveled ALOT!!! He was usually gone at least 2-3 days/nights a week. And on Sundays, though he wasn't traveling, he was usually in a bishopric or on the high council, so he was no help. IT'S SO HARD and you have my sympathy. The best advice: stay calm, pray for strength and ideas to keep the girls busy. Love ya, Peggy
I used to hate sundays like this even when I didn't have kids, k the boys ranch was A LOT like this, definitely no rest, but I always headed out for a drive, went down to the creek or out to Prosser! But maybe what you really need is a vacation, and it just so happens I have the perfect place for you to vaca at! :)
hang in there sister!! One day you will look back at these days and miss when the kids were young and wanted you there!! Make the most of Sunday, start early, try not to rush and allow whatever spitit can to touch you! And pack a really great church bag!! :) Love you!!
Why do you think the Lord has put us in the same ward? So I can help you as much as you need. I really really don't mind helping with Eben or any of the other kids. That is what i am there for. Listen to your older sisters. Lay clothes out the night before, have baths done the night before. Do as much as you can on Saturday night. Remember that song "Saturday is a specail day, it's the day we get ready for Sunday".
Love ya
I know the feeling..Pierre works nights so he has to sleep on sundays..I am hoping for him to have a sunday off as well..I have dealt with this for a long while now though so kinda got use to it..I hate going to church by myself..it sucks. Feel for ya.
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