An Answer to a Prayer...

So many times in my life, I have fallen on my knees to pray, sometimes more than others, but lately more often than not. I have struggled and pondered answers to questions I didn't even know I was ready to ask. I find myself in a vicious cycle of what to do NEXT.
I worry that I don't make the right choice or that I haven't put enough into decisions or that I'm rushing things. I worry way too much about things, when really I need to learn to hand my concerns over to Heavenly Father and then let what will be...be.
So much it seems has gone on, I don't know, in my mind it has. Aaron in school, both girls in school now, running to and from school, activities, play dates, cleaning house, laundry day in and out, keeping kids safe and happy and clean, trying to pay bills, adjusting to being a "single" parent while Aaron endures school and work for our family. I wonder if he knows how much I truly appreciate his sacrifices? If he knows that in the end, this will all be a bad dream we woke up to, and that one day soon he will have a great job and we will finally be one step closer to where we should be. I wonder if I am a good wife to him, if I'm a good Mommy to my kids, if I am a good sister, friend, daughter, cleaner, organizer, bill keeper, member of the church, if and how I can improve on these things, if I worry for nothing. Which I'm sure is the case. Aaron tells me that often that I do worry for nothing. These are things that concern me, that I do think of because they are important to me.
All I know is that with faith and doing what I should I will receive the answers I know I need, and I can do and be what I know I can be. I just have to keep striving, and pressing forward. I know I make mistakes, I don't always say or do the right thing, but I try, I try to do what Heavenly Father would want from me and expects from me, and that's all I can do. What matters to me is that, not perfection, just the strive to be better and do better.
My answers have come. Its amazing how rereading something you have, that you thought said or meant one thing can change or mean something completely different when you read it again when looking for answers or guidance. Heavenly Father does hear and answer my prayers. Always.